in the long run...

received my "acceptance letter" via e-mail today.
[i find that humorous for some reason...]
now it is really decision time!
should i stay...
or should i go...
if i go it is for real.
i am kind of freaked-out by real, commitment type things as of late.
or....as of always...
so many doubts and questions running through my head..
nothing really huge to keep me from going.
but, none-the-less, things that are making me nervous.
i guess in all honesty, i'm just a big baby.
leaving my security blanket...
my family,
makes me a little scared.
i need to just jump.
and prove to...
someone...
that i can do it.


in other news:
that boy bought his first house today.
how exciting!
it made me cry.
how lame i've become.

i watched marry poppins with my niece, nephew and grandma today.
it made me want to be eight years-old again....